Friday, February 11, 2011

things that are fascinating me as of right now

- the study of numerology
- the study of wicca
- my pendulum
- the cosmos
- old souls, new souls, and everything in between
- the things that different religions and beliefs have in common

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

don't make your blog your best friend.

they do say not to make your blog your best friend, and in a few ways i agree. when i comes to business, as in you have your blog connected with your store, then yes, it should be more professional then full of rants...and that's why i have two. i love my inspiration blog, because that is an enormous part of my life.

BUT, i love this one, too. i like knowing that if people want to see a real side, then it's here, too. i've always felt that being yourself is important.

Monday, February 7, 2011

and survey says...

i need something.

i need some inspiration. i need to reignite my passion. i need some adventure. i need people to be more real. i need to drink more water. i need to create something new. i need friends to stop playing games. i need to stop playing games. i need to find some employment. i need to move on from things i let my mind linger on. i need to go back in time and pay those tickets on time. i need some ice cream, preferably cold stone. i need to meet new people. i need to have something fresh in my life. i need to appreciate what i have in my life. i need to learn to paint. i need to write more. i need to use every minute of every day. i need to stop being such a flake. i need to make myself hang out with people. i need to clear my head. i need to go on more drives. i need to stop getting annoyed so easily. i need to grow. i need to grow up. i need to stop caring SO MUCH. i need a lot, but the only way to do this is to act on it.

Friday, February 4, 2011

on a more serious note...

while playing on the computer today i stumbled upon this. it makes me realize how it was a mere chance of luck that i was born in america, to this life. it also makes me realize how little i know about the rest of the world, and how much i plan to educate myself.

i must add that i find it utterly bizarre that there are pictures of dying children, war, and catastrophe next to pictures of paris hilton, michael jackson, and the brittany/madonna kiss. i do not think that they are all of equal importance. the world needs to get their priorities straight.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

what's the point?

i stopped caring and trying a few months ago. funny thing is, this isn't in a negative since at all. i didn't stop caring about people, and i didn't stop trying to live or trying to be happy. i stopped caring about whether people had an idea of who i am or not, and i stopped trying to explain myself on all those wonderful social networking sites that we all seem to be so enthralled with.

truth be told, it was the best decision i've made in a while. it relieves so much stress when it doesn't matter if someone goes to your facebook and has any idea what you're interested in. if your pictures fit their square box image of what you're supposed to be. it's freeing. it's freeing not to care and not to try.

i've still written in my blogs, and yes, i do still use facebook and twitter, but i don't care who stumbles upon them. i don't care if someone from way back in high school finds my facebook and wants to judge every little bit. i don't mind if a stranger stumbles upon it and decides i'm not up to par, or that i'm not interesting. i don't even mind if when that stranger stumbles upon it that they make up a wrong judgement of the type of person i am.

why? because these people don't matter to me or my sanity. all of these billions of people in the world and i honestly don't mind if half of them doubt the kindness of my heart, the point of my intellect, or the interest of my words. what do a few opinions matter in the grand scheme of things?

they don't, and i'm perfectly happy with that knowledge. now, you should be, too.